the traffic light says green…

July 2, 2008

the present educational system of the philippines..

Filed under: life..

Filipinos were always been thought to be fast learners, however as years pass by, it has declined much significantly. Before, most of the children used to go to school but now, they are found in the streets selling, if not, begging for money or for food. It is such a pity seeing them like that when you know that at that age, they should be well taken cared of, guided by elders and honed to become better individuals. To have a good education was supposed to be the right of every Filipino citizen, however as time goes by, it has only been a privilege for those who can afford and those who have adequate resources. Schools are very limited to accommodate so many students each year and there is no budget provided by the government to build new schools for children. Education is not the priority of the Philippine government nor is it the second one. This is perhaps the reason why even if the Department of Education wants to find solutions for the scarcity of schools and books, they can never push through with some of their ideas since there are limited resources. Not only is there a scarcity of schools and books but also, there is a shortage of teachers. The number of teachers has declined since some of them opt to teach abroad due to the fact that there is a very small salary here in the country. The minimum wage could not afford to raise them from poverty and salary here is not enough to meet the needs of each member of the family. And with the limited budget, employment rate is significantly low. Also, since more and more teachers are going abroad, their expertises are brought with them. Those left behind are not competent enough to teach and render good quality education. Some of them are just teaching for the sake of earning money and not about helping the next generation and honing them to become the saving grace of the nation. The burning passion to teach cannot be seen in their eyes and they only see teaching as a job and not as something which they can dedicate their lives to. Also, more and more students from private schools have transferred to public schools since the parents cannot afford anymore to send them to private schools. With this, there is additional percent to children studying in public schools and it poses another problem. One solution that they did for this is that they created double shifts. There are morning classes and afternoon classes. However, I believe that this is not enough for a growing and curious child. A child needs more and more time to learn and the given period is not adequate for better learning. Also, teachers would be so tired that they cannot make the most out of their abilities. They cannot teach well and would just resort to giving activities thus having less input to the part of the child. This is such a very sad reality for all of us. The children were supposed to be the hope of the nation, but what will happen if this problem persists? I believe that action should be done immediately before further damage can be inflicted.

college.. is it preparing me for life?

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 Looking beyond the vast edifice in front of me and imagining what might be years from now, watching people come and go leaving a mark in our society, gazing up to people who made it to the top from billboards to newspapers, I sit here on one corner thinking, yesterday was full of hopes and dreams, of ambitions and aspirations. It was not so long ago when I had visions of going to a very prestigious school and earning my degree. I could still remember the time when I had to choose what course to take and which path to set forth but in the end felt like I didn’t have any choice at all. Perhaps, others might say it’s cruel but on the second thought, things can be negotiated and somehow, we can always adjust and adapt. College was never that easy in the beginning, trust me. From being in a comfort zone for quite some time, abruptly, you are placed in an arena with beasts and lions and all you have is yourself and the armor you never imagined you might use one of those days. But at least, I somehow managed, struggled at first but somehow, managed. Being in college taught me the lessons I never learned years back but the learning I have was never confined in the four corners of the classroom neither within the huge walls that surround me. It exceeded beyond that, far more than what I have ever expected. College gave me a glimpse of the life out there as they say. Somehow, it gave me a preview of what might be in the near future. But I know that it’s far more than what I have witnessed, after all, life has its own surprises. The problems I have encountered during college were twice the problems I had when I was still in high school. Back then, I was pampered and everything was given to me. I never had the chance to provide solutions, make amends and stand up for what I believe is right. And those things I never did before, I had firsthand experience during college and I believe that it will help me through life. College taught me to be independent and how to have discipline. People come and go to deceive and lure me to temptation and eventually to sin, and I have learned to fight back the urge and say no. I have learned to set my limits straight and learned to choose my friends. I have learned how to deal with other people and realized that every action that I make has consequences of its own thus decisions should be carefully thought of. I realized that life is not just all about fun and games like before; it’s about committing mistakes and eventually learning from them and standing up in every defeat that we encounter. College opened me to situations that I have never experienced before. It has opened doors to possibilities that might happen and opportunities that I may grasp or drop. Abilities that were dormant for quite some time were brought alive and were used not only for the sake of personal gain but also for the benefit of other people. With that, joy and contentment were felt even with the simplest of gestures. Perhaps, as I may firmly say, college is the start of our preparation, but it will never be the end. It has established a foundation of our faith that will be honed for the rest of our lives. We are in a process of building our lives and with each day that God has given, we are offered with a chance to do the best that we can and to make the most out of it. We may never know what will happen next, but with wisdom, courage and faith, we may be able to seek for answers, find solutions and see the light beyond the tunnel..

May 23, 2008

taking some time off..

Filed under: life..

a lot has been going in my mind for the past few days.. so many questions, what if’s, insights, realizations and the like..these thoughts seem to bother me once in awhile and the more i think about it, the more confused i get.. and to add up, the more i try to shove it away my thoughts, the more it comes back to my senses.. yes, it keeps me standing still however, it hinders me from moving on and going forward to where i want my life to be.. that is, if ever i really know what i want and where to go.. but the point is, if i keep on dwelling with the bad things and the misfortunes of life and keep on rationalizing and justifying my actions, i’d miss out on the good things and the fun that life has to offer.. what more, i’d truly miss out on the joy and wonder of unfolding the mysteries and revealing the secrets of our existence.. so before i get the hang of things and before these thoughts start to get into my being, i’ll be taking some time off.. indeed, i’ll be going somewhere far from home for the first time ALONE!!.. but the truth of the matter is, i’ll be going to the "city who took my father away.."  it gives me the creeps thinking about it but it’s time to face it.. and trust me, there will be more mind-boggling thoughts and soul-searching.. but who cares, i’m in for the surprises of my life..=)

May 21, 2008

unanswered prayer?..

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unanswered prayer..or perhaps God’s way of telling me to WAIT.. wait, my child, wait.. it is true that when something you’ve wanted all your life is once again taken away from you, it’s not so easy to find ways to be grateful.. i’m no hypocrite by readily telling people that there’s a purpose behind every situation and that things will be ok in an instant.. we always pass by a phase when all we can ever think of is to question our worth and dignity as a person.. things don’t always go by the way we want it to be.. indeed, it’s true, but it’s easier to accept when you’ve went through that once but somehow, when the cycle repeats itself all over again, i tell you, it’s never that easy.. i can’t help but think if luck would ever find my way.. luck, fortune, good vibes or whatever you call it.. admittedly though, even if i have a hundred reasons to give up, i still have a thousand to hold on and believe that there is something behind all of these things.. that even if how mysterious God’s works are, it is always on our favor.. that one of these days, i can find the answers that my mind is looking for and that someday, i can find the happiness and contentment that i have been longing and one day, all of my prayers, as well as yours will be answered..=)

May 11, 2008

i miss him..

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i miss the boy who gives me piggyback rides in the morning..
i miss the guy who calls me beautiful even though my hair’s all messed up..
i miss the boy who brags me to his friends..
i miss the boy who knows just when to make me smile..
 i miss the one who sings for me in the middle of the night..
i miss the one who simply watches me when i sleep..
i miss anything and everything about this guy..
i miss this wonderful boy..
i miss him..
i miss my DAD.. 

May 10, 2008

home!

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i’m home! i’m back again to the place where i belong.. i’ve been away for five days, (it’s as if i’ve been gone for a year..haha.. ok, it’s less than a week) to go on duty in digos, davao del sur, a one-hour travel away from davao.. we were assigned in digos doctor’s hospital nusring station 4 and we were so damn lucky.. census of patients would range from 5 to 10.. haha.. since it was a super private area of the hospital so only a few can afford.. some patients who were admitted there would immediately request to transfer in cheaper rooms.. so, in the end, we were left with only a few patients.. thank God!..=) with that number, we were tasked to do everything for the patient, chart, medicate, bedside care and everything and anything that we can do.. so lucky! definitely.. in our dormitory, i felt like we were in the pinoy big brother since we were not allowed to go out unless it’s really important.. there, i learned a lot of household chores.. from washing my clothes to ironing them and being responsible enough to clean my mess and of course, i definitley learned how to budget, budget, and budget! hahaha..=p though during our whole stay there, we just ate and ate and ate and slept.. haha..=p it’s not so bad to be away from home since i learned how to take care of myself and be independent..i’m always a spoiled brat whenever i’m home.. haha.. so this experience taught me a lot.. i don’t really have much to say.. all i know is that i’m happy to be back in my room, my comfortable bed with all the pillows, happy to be with my family again back to being a spoiled brat, nah just kidding… simply put, i’m just so happy to be HOME..=)

April 26, 2008

cheers..!!

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intensive care unit=check.. hahaha..=p at long last, we were already finished with our duty in the davao medical center intensive care unit.. i don’t know why i badly wanted it to end when in fact the patient we handled was just so sweet and we learned a lot.. and i do mean, a lot.. ok, so maybe the reason why i want that grueling shift to end because of our monstrous clinical instructor.. forgive me for using the term.. but in my point of view, she is just so annoying and she degrades the confidence and motivation that we have in order to work at our best.. she treats us as if we are like pieces of shit since she wants to be the best there, blah, blah, blah.. she acts as if she’s the NOD there.. ugh! and she can’t see any goodness in other people especially in her students.. we are always WRONG in her eyes.. whenever she teaches a procedure, she teaches as if she’s nagging with a tone of superiority and arrogance.. also, whenever doctors and watchers arrive, she acts as if she’s this angel from heaven.. ugh! ggrrr!! oh my! i’ve never been the type to hold grudges to a person but i can’t really take it anymore.. at least i wrote all down my feelings here than say it right infront of her face.. that would be such a mean thing to do and i won’t resort to that.. haha.. oh lord! forgive me for all these angry outbursts.. anyways, enough of that.. i learned how to do ngt feeding, cbg monitoring, shampoo in bed and bed bath as quick as possible..also, i learned how to operate the gadgets there.. save me from ignorance! haha..=p i admit it’s really different performing it in a return demonstration than in the actual.. icu requires all its nurses to be swift and quick in doing all the procedures since we are dealing with critical patients here and one wrong move can put the life of a person at stake.. i also learned never to hesitate in doing a procedure and to always have confidence and trust in oneself.. after all, no one’s gonna motivate you other than yourself.. being responsible and having presence of mind are some of the things that i really learned.. it takes patience, hard work , knowledge, critical thinking and dedication to survive in this kind of profession.. and i admit, it’s not that easy when so many forces are trying to pull you down.. sometimes, we just have to learn things the hard way.. but perhaps, it’s not always a disadvantage for after everything, emotions and feelings will just come and go but the learnings that we gained in this experience would stick with us for the rest of our lives..:) at least, there’s something to be happy about.. cheers!

April 21, 2008

i just have to try..

Filed under: life..

life has not been so easy these days..                   
i try to pretend that everything’s fine,
that i can manage all the things happening around me..
that i can let people see an image of a happy and contented person..
i go about doing the same things everyday..
doing stuff that i need to accomplish,
trying to please and understand each person along my way..
looking for answers that i know i can never find..
asking endless questions and wondering what might have been..
feeling in a state of bliss with the company of friends..
but sooner or later, finding myself alone as ever..
i stop and ponder why it has been like that,
why my journey ceased to reflect a vision of me..
i am currently unaware of who i really am..
what i really want and,
where i wanna go in this life..
my existence has been a constant motion..
no excitements, no thrills, no enthusiasm..
just merely doing what ought to be done..
all because something is bothering me..
i have so many what if’s in my mind..
what if i did this, what if i did that,
what if i held on,
what if i was stronger and braver during those times..
what if i gave myself a chance to do what i want..
so many what if’s that i coudn’t help but stop putting it down..
i don’t want to live a life full of regrets..
i don’t wanna see myself depressed over something,
that i know i could never bring back..
all i have are bittersweet memories of the past..
the fun, the joys, the happy company, sweet nothings,
and everything and anything about it..  
i don’t know where this would lead me..
all i know is that it’s time to move on and go on..
start anew and  begin another wonderful milestone..
it’s not that easy,
but i just have to try….

 

April 20, 2008

the latest happenings..

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my room., bed, pillows.. oh, heaven! mind you, nowadays, those are just the things that excite me whenever i go home.. haha.. such a sleepyhead! but i wouldn’t be like that if not for this course, what else? b.s. nursing.. we just finished our first rotation this summer 2008.. basic life support was so fun although after that, my whole body just ached.. we were so fortunate to be taught by the people in central 911.. ateneo de davao university is the only school affiliated by the central 911 and boy, we were just so lucky!..=p they taught us basic first aid, how to do cpr and most of all, the mass casualty incident.. it was a very wonderful experience.. running here and there, performing skills and meeting a lot of new people.. haha..=p the added plus.. *wink* after that, we were then assigned to the OB ward of the Davao Medical Center.. such a pity seeing those moms and babies in that kind of situation.. the heat, the smell, the noise.. it’s just saddens me to see them like that everyday.. what more, because there are so many patients, some of them share in the same bed and rodents such as cockroaches hoard them like hell.. it was really disgusting.. but it was really an eye-opener for me..the people around us suffer and yet here we are, wasting our money for some nonsense things.. *sigh* with the energy-draining environment, who wouldn’t be knocked down after 8 hours of duty?! haha.. worse thing is, i have to wake up at around 3 am to make my requirements.. oh, life! i’m just so tired.. but i believe, by God’s grace, i can do all things.. next week, we will be assigned in the davao medical center intensive care unit.. i am so nervous and scared.. i really don’t know what to do.. but it’s a challenge for me.. a challenge that i should not evade but FACE!! oh Lord, help me..=)

April 11, 2008

i’m yours..

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this is just one of the happiest days of my life..emoticonand i thank GOD for making things happen..  i know HE can hear me.. i know.. honestly, i have no idea what to write here.. words cannot express the joy i am feeling right now, the ecstacy running through my veins, and the bliss, oh! the bliss!!..

say hello to the knight in shining armor..

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Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you’re so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I’m trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I’ll be giving it my bestest
Nothing’s going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it’s again my turn to win some or learn some

I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I’m yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you’re free
Look into your heart and you’ll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
i love peaceful melody
It’s your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I’m sure
There’s no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I’m yours

I’ve been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what i’ma saying is there ain’t no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It’s what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I’m sure
There’s no need to complicate
Our time is short
this is our fate, I’m yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you’re free
Look into your heart and you’ll find the sky is yours
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
A lá one big family (2nd time: A lá happy family; 3rd time: A lá peaceful melody)
It’s your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won’t hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I’m sure
There’s no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I’m yours

No please, don’t complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I’m yours

No please, don’t hesitate
no more, no more
It cannot wait
The sky is your’s!

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