the traffic light says green…

the air moves regardless of what season it may be.. leaves fall even if you can’t see.. birds chirp even if you can’t hear.. life changes even if it may seem unclear.. i can never deny that things have really changed.. but somehow, change is good, right? coz’ that’s where we start to grow.. who would want a monotonous life? all of us are living our own lives.. my friends are now heading to their own path.. and i am moving on to where God has planned for me.. although at this point in time, i am not sure where it really is… they now have thair own stories to tell. new sets of experiences, and a bunch of their own funny moments.. and as mcuh as i want to know all of them just like the old times, i can’t really seem to do it.. time has flown so fast without even us noticing.. it’s been like a month or two since we last saw each other.. time has been so selfish and has not permitted us to.. i just miss my friends.. the everyday nonsense we do that would always leave us crying for joy, and wanting for more.. the usual sitting down in one corner and sharing how our day had been.. with all the jokes, "libaks", own trips, tears and laughters, we sure do had lots of good times together.. i just miss their company and just simply being with them.. time has come when we have to share all those things to new people.. i have a good deal of new friends right now.. i belong to a section where we all understand each other.. where together, we face the challenges of our so-called nursing career.. we always hang out together, and it seems as if a day wouldn’t be complete without us laughing around and having fun.. amidst all the pressures, we still find time to do all those things.. my friends always say that i’m the lucky one. because i don’t have one of my friends with me but hey, if they only know.. it isn’t easy being alone.. i am surrounded with peers who have their old friends with them inside the class.. and when they start to converse about their old times.. i just sit there listening wondering what might be if i also have someone to converse with.. i have persons whom i could really share my life, my secrets and my innermost thoughts and feelings.. but somehow, it’s really different when you share your feelings to friends you grew up with.. but then, life is like that.. as they say, if you cease to change, you cease to live.. i will never forget the memories we once shared i will always hold on to the friendship we had.. and wherever life may lead us, and even if new friends may come and go, all of you will always have a special place in my heart.. and i will eagerly wait for the day, when we will all finally see each other do the stuff we always do.. when we will have all the time in the world.. and share to each other how we become the persons we have come to be.. i miss you…

just something i wrote for a very dear friend on her 18th birthday..
well, here goes..

 

 Like a flower that blooms at midday,

A new chapter has finally come your way

The stars twinkle and shine in a vast array

Something magical happens on your special day

 

Vulnerable and fickle you were back then,

Foolish and imprudent uttered some men

Whether or not they were telling something true

It doesn’t matter to me, they don’t have any clue

 

It was not so long ago since you crashed your life to mine

I don’t know if the thought would make me happy,

But you’ve definitely crossed the line

It was your face that would greet me anywhere I go

And that would always lead to something crazy, that I surely know

 

I don’t know why in an instant we clicked

Maybe it was because of the way we think

Dreams, fantasies, reveries or whatever you call it

It completes our day, it’s simply magic

 

Ok, maybe you have some moods and occasional hot tempers

But who cares, it’s just for awhile, it wouldn’t last forever

But maybe now, as you’re getting older,

Please control your anger and your regressive behaviors

 

When I come to think of it,

Maybe that’s what’s different and great in you,

You show who you really are and you’re being true

Especially to people you don’t really like

They just have to deal with it or else you’ll strike

 

So maybe I started on the wrong side,

But just like you, your goodness, it won’t hide

Deep within you, I know you care and you understand

You surely are ready to lend a helping hand

 

Being with you is just simply amazing

Great wonders and joy it could bring

I know you are capable of so many things

I believe in you and in the power of your dreams

 

Wherever you may go,

Remember I’m just here and you will always have a friend in me

A friend who can be as crazy as you could be

I may not say everything I want to say in this piece of paper

But hold in your heart the memories we shared,

Memories that will be cherished forever.

 

while i was browsing through my files, i stumbled upon this particular article which reminded me of the pains and struggles of moving on and picking up the broken pieces of my heart.. i can hardly remember where i got this and i’m sorry for that but despite the misfortune, i wanna share this to everyone who just had their hearts broken and those who badly need a little hug, a pat of encouragement and just someone who would simply listen to the stories of their life.. right now, i am thinking of a dear friend who is suffering and is hurting so much.. it will get better, i promise..

                               

dear friend,

I won’t say I know how you feel but I’ll say that I’ve been there.

Love hurts. It’s a fact that has been established millions of times since people took over this planet.

The havoc love can reek on one’s life is a universal truth. Which makes me wonder why no one ever taught us how to deal with it. In school, we were taught our 123s and ABCs. We were equipped with knowledge on sciences and sports. We were instructed on how to cut frogs open, how electricity works, we were even drilled on what to do during an earthquake. But why were we never given a step-by-step recovery guide in case someone trampled on our hearts?

Or were our teachers just as clueless?

Were they hurting too?

Most people - like us - were left with no choice but to let love be the teacher.

And love has a lot of lessons to teach.

You haven’t known love if you haven’t experienced staring at a phone that just refuses to ring, sobbing loudly into a pillow, wondering why sad songs suddenly become gospel.

True, it’s not fun.

There is no joy in waking up with swollen eyes, in figuring out what went wrong, in guessing if he still thinks about you, in weighing if there was any truth to anything he ever said, in hoping that there is still a chance.

But find comfort in the fact that you are not alone.

There are broken hearts all over the world.

Somewhere in South Africa, a girl is looking through old photos, wondering if she should burn them.

Somewhere in New York, a girl just sent an angry e-mail to an ex and immediately regretted it after.

Somewhere in New Zealand, a boy is getting drunk because the girl he loves is getting married tomorrow.

Somewhere in Spain, a woman just broke down after finding out that her husband is cheating.

You are not alone.

Yours is not the first heart to be broken nor will it be the last.

But know that the human heart is strong enough to withstand pain and powerful enough to move on and start again.

You will heal, like all the others did, like everyone else will.

Things will get better, although it’s hard to imagine now. One day, when you wake up and realize that not all men are evil, you might even decide that you are ready to love again.

In the meantime, I will be here to listen to you denounce love even if we know you don’t really mean it. I will be here for late-night pigout sessions. I will be the audience to your drama queen. I will participate in memento-burning ceremonies. I will strap my seatbelt on and go where your mood swings take me. And I will try to stop you from drunk-dialling - and intoxicated texting and e-mailing.

Because if there’s one thing a broken heart needs - it’s the presence of a friend.

I should know - you showed me that.

Please remember - only your heart is broken.

You will always be whole to me.

a toast to Our FRIENDSHIP…

friendship is about being with you at the end of the day,
no matter how gloomy or happy the day had been..
friendship is about sharing with you the silliest and craziest ideas i have in mind..
still accepting them and even saying way more ridiculous things..
friendship is about eating with you, may it be in fancy restaurants or in just some cheap eateries..
but still enjoying the slightest bit of food we all have..  
friendship is about window shopping in the malls, going in all of the boutiques,
and promising we’d be back for that favorite shirt we’ve been eyeing on..
and God only knows if we’d ever be back..
friendship is about just merely sitting with you, saying nothing but more or less feeling everything..
friendship is about looking for food to eat,
from burgers to hotdogs, from the famous kwek2 and well, the not-so-famous eaji..
proofs of our being gluttonous..
friendship is about walking, feeling alone and sad,
but eventually hearing someone call your name, and when you turn back,
all the fears you have vanishes in an instant just merely seeing the smiles on their faces..
friendship is about supporting each one with whatever she wishes to do but always with the right guidance..
friendship is about carefully saying what’s wrong on the other one’s outfit or if hair is all messed up.,
prudent enough not to hurt her feelings and making her feel good afterwards..
friendship is about laughing along the streets of jacinto, not minding if other people are watching..
doing funny acts that only us understand, and that only us can see it on such a way..
friendship is about exchanging knowledge about our subjects, discussing about rd’s and rle exams..
lending some books and giving some photocopies..
proofs that we value most our studies..
friendship is about pushing the other to move forward whenever she feels down and out..
friendship is about gossiping about other people, but justifying why we have said things,
oh yes, not-so-good things about another person..
friendship is about reading each one’s mind, and knowing what’s going on without even saying anything..
and by merely looking at each other, we’d laugh our minds off..
friendship is walking you home, not minding how late it is,
for as long as i’m with the both of you, everything would be meaningful..
friendship is about running in the rain, completely savoring each drop that falls..
not minding if we’d all get soaked up and get all wet..
friendship is about watching movies together..
from the sappy romantic comedy films that would make our hearts leap out and eventually sigh and say, "awww"
up to horror movies that would leave us screaming our lungs out only to find out that nothing scary appeared on screen..
friendship is about practicing with you for the upcoming debut..
and no matter how tiring and annoying some people are, still we’d be happy knowing we have each one to back us up..
friendship is about together making new friends and leaving room in our hearts for some more..
friendship is about being called angels by our everdearest leader..
friendship is about sitting with you drinking coffee and eating cake..
just simply talking and oh yes, going to the comfort room together watching while the other pees..
friendship is about dancing with you the whole night long,
extremely shocked with the way the other dances but saying nothing and just having fun..
friendship is about being with you in one of the comfiest places we’ve ever been..
having some shots and  reminding each one to watch out for ourselves if we can still have another..
friendship is all about exploring new stuffs without regrets
because we know that together, it would all be worthwhile..
friendship is all about going to the chapel with you to pray..
and believing in the wonderful works of God..
friendship is standing firm with our values and beliefs..
friendship is together accepting what lies ahead for all of us..
even if how hurting it would be..
friendship is together learning how to grow and embrace the challenges that GOD will give us..
friendship is having the courage and strength to understand the journey of life..
friendship is believing in the power of love and that whatever happens,
the three of us will always be the best of friends..
friendship is all about walking with you hand in hand under the moonlit sky,
together reaching for the stars and finding our place in the sun..
most importantly, friendship would be useless without the two of you…
i found more meaning in this ten-letter word..
because,
FRIENDSHIP is all about simply being with the both of you, shy and kat2..