the traffic light says green…

intensive care unit=check.. hahaha..=p at long last, we were already finished with our duty in the davao medical center intensive care unit.. i don’t know why i badly wanted it to end when in fact the patient we handled was just so sweet and we learned a lot.. and i do mean, a lot.. ok, so maybe the reason why i want that grueling shift to end because of our monstrous clinical instructor.. forgive me for using the term.. but in my point of view, she is just so annoying and she degrades the confidence and motivation that we have in order to work at our best.. she treats us as if we are like pieces of shit since she wants to be the best there, blah, blah, blah.. she acts as if she’s the NOD there.. ugh! and she can’t see any goodness in other people especially in her students.. we are always WRONG in her eyes.. whenever she teaches a procedure, she teaches as if she’s nagging with a tone of superiority and arrogance.. also, whenever doctors and watchers arrive, she acts as if she’s this angel from heaven.. ugh! ggrrr!! oh my! i’ve never been the type to hold grudges to a person but i can’t really take it anymore.. at least i wrote all down my feelings here than say it right infront of her face.. that would be such a mean thing to do and i won’t resort to that.. haha.. oh lord! forgive me for all these angry outbursts.. anyways, enough of that.. i learned how to do ngt feeding, cbg monitoring, shampoo in bed and bed bath as quick as possible..also, i learned how to operate the gadgets there.. save me from ignorance! haha..=p i admit it’s really different performing it in a return demonstration than in the actual.. icu requires all its nurses to be swift and quick in doing all the procedures since we are dealing with critical patients here and one wrong move can put the life of a person at stake.. i also learned never to hesitate in doing a procedure and to always have confidence and trust in oneself.. after all, no one’s gonna motivate you other than yourself.. being responsible and having presence of mind are some of the things that i really learned.. it takes patience, hard work , knowledge, critical thinking and dedication to survive in this kind of profession.. and i admit, it’s not that easy when so many forces are trying to pull you down.. sometimes, we just have to learn things the hard way.. but perhaps, it’s not always a disadvantage for after everything, emotions and feelings will just come and go but the learnings that we gained in this experience would stick with us for the rest of our lives..:) at least, there’s something to be happy about.. cheers!